And again...im searching for my love...

...in internet...yea, internet.

It has been proven tat tis did not work out for the pass 8 years, as most of the ppl in internet are into fun (sorry to say tat), and some i dun even know why they r there.

I oways has difficulty to understand them. Yup..probably they hav no interest on my profile, which i do noe im not tat attractive. But, i tot, if they r really keen on loving relationship (not sexual relationship pls), shall v at least try to understand each other too, about our pass, personality, wat do v expect in a relationship, how do v perceive love etc ?
Recently i chat wit a young guy in internet. In profile, he emphasized how eager he needs to find true love. But along the way we chat, he seemed totally not interest to talk much about love with me. He din even ask me anything. Again, due to my facepic and stats? Due to my age?

My age...oh yea. Im 35, but gosh, i still look like 25 or even younger. Im not here to promote myself but tis is really a fact. As i hav put in my profile, those above 30 feel me like a kid. But those below 25 feel me like uncle due to my age. They dun even believe i looks like their age. They dun even believe i can communicate with them.
I feel myself tis way, i looks externally like a kid, and internally my soul is stil a kid. I hav a numbers of nephew. I like to chat with my nephew those r around 20, they like to chat with me too. But, when they grow older, say after 25, they seems to be more mature than me, and our topic of conversation will bcome less and less. Seems tat, im stagnant at my age of 25.
When i was 25, i was so eager to hav a bf. It was wonderful to hav a bf at young age, i really regret i mis that and that is not possible for me to be 25 anymore. But i still wish now tat i may hav a bf at 25, and let me hav the illusion that my young age was not just over without love. I wish to hav bf at around 25 is NOT bcos i like young boi, but bcos of the feeling and enthusiasm of love (纯真的爱), probably true love. I notice most guys above 30 will only like to talk about sex rather than love.
I have stopped this useless internet searching for few years, and now i start it again as i want to give me one more chance. But the worse thing is, the more i search, the more dissappointed i am, and the more lonely i feel, till i cant even fall sleep at nite, or wake up at 4am every day.

I dun understand, y most guys in internet r seeking for fun? Y oways heard ppl say hard to find love, but y not those ppl love each others? 是不是男人不坏,同志不爱? Y thos ppl said seeking love oso look for fun at the same time? Y cant v hav a site that only for those looking for fren/love only? How do i chat with ppl tat i interested with, so that it wont give them pressure, so that i wont appear as too bored/not serious/too serious? I admit my social circle is small, i dun hav any plu fren and nvr clubbing. So is tat means those successful couple know their partner from real-life rather than internet? Those really into love relationship will normally not seeking in the internet?
...and much much more.

Can any1 give me answer or is ther any1 know the statistic? Am i wasting my time again? And just to make me feel more sad.

Finally, sorry for my broken language and wrong spelling (if ther is really some1 reading tis, really appreciate). Im really tired now, both mentally and physically, im not manage to write a good article at tis moment.

Sigh, 12am again...wat will happen tomorrow?
Good nite to me.